one day at a time

today i have a list of things i don't want to do- to do.
i have to pick up my accident report.
talk to my insurance people,
make a decision on my car, (its my decision)
oh i have to go pick up pottery.
during this time i have to keep a three year old happy,
and then make sure i pick up his sister after all this.
then go down the street and baby sit another kid.
i have kids all day.
i have stuff to do.
i need a nap and an adult.

Sry i havent written...

I was in a car accident the other night, labor day.
it was very very scary and crazy. i missed a stop sign, ran across a 4 lane, into crocodile dun dee land, and after getting thru that up to a bank parking lot. no one sees how i did it, and i don't either. it was screaming, and it was very crazy. thats the word: crazy.
I came out without a scratch, i still don't see how.
my car is damaged, but i gotta work, so i am still driving it.
School is taking up a bunch of my time this week and next week, so i may not write until after i get done and thru with it all. but then i may not have anything to write about since i cant do anything with anyone for a while.

i- had a dream

So last night i had a dream that i was sitting by a fence and Jamie was on the left of me. We were just sitting there, and then this guy who was apparently my boyfriend was coming up, and Jamie starts laying his head in my lap and being all sad but wanting my attention. but when my boyfriend -who ever he was- was almost to us, jam hands me a cigarette and i light it. and then my bf hands me one but then when he relises i have one already, i try to put the one jamie handed he out, i guess so i could take the one my bf was giving me. and then my bf grabbed my hand and was telling me not to put it out, and asked if it was a camel (i dont know why ok) and then he said if it was i shouldnt put it out i should give it to him.
It was a weird dream, for a lot of reasons.
So Ryan and I had coffee and tea yesterday.
I like him, but not in the same way as other people. I dont know how to explain but i crave his company lol.
The problem is that he doesnt have a lot of time, i mean i dont ethier, but at the end of the day we're both wishing we had more time and let it be free.
well gotta get ppl ready for there day...

i wanna write, but its a weird weekend...

so i was playing 20 qustion
the hand held one
where you answer quetions and it tells you what it is ur thinking.
Me and Ryan are a river or an ocean wave.

great weekend ahead.
whoo hoo...
alisalynn

Here's to the night...

This is the song that helped me with the name of this blog. you can also go to my profile and there's a link to it as well. i wanted the music to play when you're on my main blog page, but it's not working.
hope u r the now.or.never.kind too!

today's iced latte

Ryan and i did have coffee today. and it was great to see him.
i've missed him in a different way.
I hated that we had other things todo, i wanted to forget the world and have a moment somewhere with him.
i hope he calls and we make and take some time togther that we can really care about.
i watch dinner and big-small talk.
more tomorow hopfully.

Coffee?

So i have a coffee date today.
He is one of the best ppl in the world to drink coffee with.
and I'm happy i get the chance to see him today.

I am in a writing mood.

i am.
i have so many things i want to say right now, but i know i won't get them all out.
iam at work.
i have decided that i am, through this blog, go ing to write a list (over time) of ten things i know about love. these are my opinions on my life or at least someones. don't take it personally if you don't agree.
There is a lizard (a new one by the name of Violet) on my leg.
she is so so cold that i can feel her through my jeans.
this lizard is different from the previous one, Lily. whom died last week from what i think was a heart attack. Violet is very calm like Lily, but she looks very different, in fact i am a bit scared. in one way she looks like she would bite or attack, but on the other she acts like she wouldn't harm a fly. (crickets are another story.) she has become aware of the computer i am typing on and has gotten on it. she is very still and i wonder if she is plotting.
so i am reading the book looking for alaska by John Green. is good and i hope to get through it and read some more books Lindsey gave me yesterday. they all sound so good i want to read them quickly, tho i never can finish a book very quickly because there are a lot of things that distract me.
near the beginning on the book the guy is talking about his parents saying goodbye to him, and they tell him they love him. he talks about how it was 'uncomfortable, like watching your grandparents kiss'. i thought about this. now i begin to think that i haven't seen my grandparents kid as far as i remember. then i thought well its because they don't like each other, lol. but i know they love each other, so i thought older people probly don't kiss each other all the time like younger people do because they have done it so many times in the past that it's old to them.
* so here's one of the things i here by know about love-

I am never going to be part of that old couple. i am going to marry someone i love enough that i would kiss everyday we are together. and after being together that long and kissing that much, it would not matter one bit who was around or what was going on. i am going to make grand kids sick, and other couples blush. i am not going to be like that woman who dresses her hubby old like her everyday and walks smiley's and the mall dressed in purples and pinks. i think I've seen them at wal*mart too. i mean sometimes couples dressing a like is extremely cute, but old men forced to wear pink and walk around trailing a skinny woman who you know has to color that hair like crazy cuz it looks fake, just isn't as cute. its labor.
so my love goal is going to be- be in love and old folk pda is going to be okay! lol.
i want a guy i would want to kiss everyday until we die.

and for the record, spell check says okay is not a word. if someone knows what the correct spelling of 'okay' is please let me know.

The Now or Never Kind

So I have decided to make my own blog to type away about whatever.
this blog isn't for product, its for my process.
i am not really concerned about it being right or being liked, i just wanna write a bit on my own time.